For me this is now about priorities. I feel I did not give priority to my health. I was busy caring for others and doing my job and what I needed came last. Quite often I was too tired to do things I enjoyed.
Now I have to make my health a priority. Others need to step up and help with the household organisation so I can have priority on things important to me and be healthy and strong. Im sure my husband would say he never said I couldn't do things but on the other hand noone did anything to lighten my load. He would like me to give him more time. I chose to work excessively also out of fear that I'd be judged and also i found it fulfilling, how could housework and meeting others needs at home continuously at home do that? I suppose there was a hole .
I am processing it all now. It is not im sure unusual. I remember this is my experience and others will learn how this new me will be when I work out what it is.