Not having a good day today. Spent the morning in hospital on a drip because I was dehydrated. On penicillin for a very sore throat and a UT infection. Can’t get off the toilet (bowel medicine from the hospital). Struggling with drinking water I feel like all my anxieties are uncontainable, having yet another cannula today didn’t help at all. I’m constantly fighting panic attacks, it’s like reality has just hit me at full force and I don’t want to do it. This is only my first week of treatment, please tell me it’s not always like this, it really hurts my throat to cry.