The outlier

It is an isolating disease. I’m pretty sure we’ve all felt it at some stage. And boy is it such an unpleasant feeling!! But please know that you’re def not alone. We’re all here for you, and so is your medical team. They are def very experienced and skilled at this, so will have a good plan. Waiting is terrible, so try not to wait. There’s no point. After my main surgery last year, I realised it would take at least a year for all treatment etc to finish. And I was sick and tired of constantly waiting for this and that to enjoy myself. I’m talking about a decade before my diagnosis. There was always something else to do first before I could finally relax and stop worrying and just have fun, on my terms. So I thought stuff it. I can’t spend more time waiting and stressing and feeling horrible. So I decided I was ca free from then on, and the radiation etc was just for good measure. I had already changed surgeons and felt confident in my medical team to do what was best (with my say included of course). And then just started to focus on relaxing and enjoying myself. It wasn’t as easy as said, but it was much better than sitting around in self pity and feeling devastated and sad. I also was seeing my wonderful psychologist, who helped me release a lot of my fear and sadness from years prior. Because what’s the meaning of life after all, if there’s no fun and pleasure involved. So just tell yourself the ca is gone, it’s time to focus on yourself and good times, and further treatment is just smth that will happen along the way.