Struggling
Hi everyone, its been a struggle for me day to day with the effects if chemo. Also the blaming game always runs in my head as I had friends who had bc but I did not bother checking my breast and now...
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Kimmi,
Im so sorry to hear of you struggling, but I want to say to you also, that it is all so incredibly normal. You sound like a very giving and caring friend, and that you have been there for your friends with BC. Kimmi, in majority of cases you wouldnt detect anything even checking. Ive had it twice now, and both times no lumps nothing. Incredibly mentally disturbing. When I first had diagnosis in 2011, I urged work colleagues to get checked, thankfully 2 friends had BC and were caught early. There are sooooo many people I know who havent been checked at all. The other thing is I think too, there are sooo many women walking around with it and dont even know. So I say, thankfully you found it when you did, and now you have the chance to treat it. Its normal to want to blame people, situations whatever it may be, but Ive learnt the hard way through going through a multitude of emotions that all I have is this moment, and only I now have the control to do one thing at a time. I dont look back and I dont look forward. Chemo is incredibly hard and Ive always been a very strong independent woman...but this broke me as it was a recurrence. I can admit it...Im human and I dont apologize to anyone for that.
I also have no support, only my Dad thats it really and Im a single parent. It is difficult when nobody gets this once strong woman crumbled in a million pieces, its an inner turmoil, that friends and family just cant help at all. Only people traveling your path, 'Get it'.
Psychologists are great too and I urge you to consider having some counselling, but obviously not all are suitable to your needs.
You can do this, you will get through it, even in my darkest days where I felt I could no longer, I did!!! You will find the strength one day at a time to get through, and not let this define you.
Big hugs
Melinda xo
Im so sorry to hear of you struggling, but I want to say to you also, that it is all so incredibly normal. You sound like a very giving and caring friend, and that you have been there for your friends with BC. Kimmi, in majority of cases you wouldnt detect anything even checking. Ive had it twice now, and both times no lumps nothing. Incredibly mentally disturbing. When I first had diagnosis in 2011, I urged work colleagues to get checked, thankfully 2 friends had BC and were caught early. There are sooooo many people I know who havent been checked at all. The other thing is I think too, there are sooo many women walking around with it and dont even know. So I say, thankfully you found it when you did, and now you have the chance to treat it. Its normal to want to blame people, situations whatever it may be, but Ive learnt the hard way through going through a multitude of emotions that all I have is this moment, and only I now have the control to do one thing at a time. I dont look back and I dont look forward. Chemo is incredibly hard and Ive always been a very strong independent woman...but this broke me as it was a recurrence. I can admit it...Im human and I dont apologize to anyone for that.
I also have no support, only my Dad thats it really and Im a single parent. It is difficult when nobody gets this once strong woman crumbled in a million pieces, its an inner turmoil, that friends and family just cant help at all. Only people traveling your path, 'Get it'.
Psychologists are great too and I urge you to consider having some counselling, but obviously not all are suitable to your needs.
You can do this, you will get through it, even in my darkest days where I felt I could no longer, I did!!! You will find the strength one day at a time to get through, and not let this define you.
Big hugs
Melinda xo