Hi Kimmi,
You are on the right track when you say you hope to move on and face your situation right now. I think most of us wish we had done something different, found the cancer sooner or just not got it at all!
Maybe it might help if you start looking and concentrating on what you can do to make the best of your situation right now. I tried to do things to help minimize the effects of chemo, like exercising when I could, keeping my skin moisturised, my nails cared for - little things that helped me to feel in control to some degree. I also found it helped to come on here and help others if I could.
As as you know it takes a lot of energy to get through treatment so you don't want to waste it thinking about the past and things you cannot change. Just look at what can make your day or somebody else's day a little bit better right now. Take care and hope you feel better soon. xxx