@kmakm
Oh Kate
I hope that you hang in there. I still have days / weeks where I feel that I cannot cope. I do not know what sparks it off. It can be something as silly as something out of place, a piece of sewing that went wrong, getting organised for these few days away or just life biting me on the bum.
I have given up on mindfulness. I just ride out the shitty time. Hide myself away and lick my wounds.
Lately I find myself asking "What happened to me".
I have not found the answer. Lots of people told me it would "get better".
Well they have obviously never experienced what you and I have.
Big hugs to you Kate.
Annie