@kmakm I know what u mean about looking back at the “old” u. I keep thinking about this time last year and the lump was nothing but a aesthetic concern as I had been previously told it was nothing. I didn’t have a care in the world and my biggest concern was dreading the Xmas work period. I would love to have that “me” back. I’m slowly getting there emotionally and will decide if I want to even myself out physically next year. I do have a new appreciation for not taking the people on my life for granted and not swearing the small stuff anymore that’s for sure! Big hugs to u all that are having rough days xoxo