@inkpetal Firstly I want to say what an absolutely beautiful girl you are!!! love that pic of you in the hat!! I couldnt agree with you more about that appointment, I absolutely recommend it! and I do think it will make a difference, because its someone completely objective and they have a way of putting things back to you that you dont necessarily see yourself. I know when Ive seen mine in the past, its been so incredibly helpful.
I can totally relate to the Chemo Brain...I am alot older than you, but I too feel impaired, my brain does not work the way it used to, I cannot remember things, my biggest problem is I cannot get my thoughts out of my mouth in a timely manner!! Its like a God Damn delay!! My kids 17 & 19 noticed it ages ago said its bizarre!! I cannot imagine how you are managing whilst trying to study! Are there different times of the day that are better?? I find early mornings Im probably at my brightest! mentally. I think too I have considered myself impaired, even to the point of feeling quite vulnerable, my fitness has completely gone...its been a hell of a road back. But Im too scared to even go for a walk alone, because I feel fragile...its like how ridiculous! Like you, you ask..is this the new normal?? because its shit! All the positivity in the world doesnt change your reality. So I would say to you, in those moments, ditch everything! all the thoughts and go and do something for you, something nurturing even if its just a walk or a bath, something that quietens you in the moment where you feel peaceful. Then look at one thing at a time, as I know everything together feels like a mountain, impossible to climb.
Let us know how your appointment goes! like you I dont want to believe this is our new normal...because it has to get better than this....or just maybe it will be a different normal but one we can find a way to navigate around our challenges. Hugs Melinda xo