My brain finally gave me a break for Easter
Hi all,
So I am 17 months on from Dday and 8 months on from chemo and rads. Breast cancer thoughts swim around my head daily, sometimes constantly, sometimes only a few times a day. But it's always there, lurking in the background, interrupting my life and disrupting my thoughts at the most inopportune moments. It gets worse the longer I take tamoxifen. I am normally pretty good at packing shitty horrible things in a box in my head called "Keep the hell out of here". This seems to be a little harder and taking a little longer than normal for me though.
However, I am very please to say I just had the most awesome Easter long weekend. We had an extended family holiday planned, and with my new "Say yes to every invitation" motto off we went to Yamba. I baled off the Tamoxifen in preparation two weeks ago. Naughty.
What a beautiful place. We went out on the boat, fished, swam in the rock pools, drank (probably way too much). I have not laughed so much in so long. It wasn't until we were driving home that I realized the "B/C bitch had stayed out of the way for a while.. Woohoo. Now, how to keep it gone??????? More holidays me thinks.
So I am 17 months on from Dday and 8 months on from chemo and rads. Breast cancer thoughts swim around my head daily, sometimes constantly, sometimes only a few times a day. But it's always there, lurking in the background, interrupting my life and disrupting my thoughts at the most inopportune moments. It gets worse the longer I take tamoxifen. I am normally pretty good at packing shitty horrible things in a box in my head called "Keep the hell out of here". This seems to be a little harder and taking a little longer than normal for me though.
However, I am very please to say I just had the most awesome Easter long weekend. We had an extended family holiday planned, and with my new "Say yes to every invitation" motto off we went to Yamba. I baled off the Tamoxifen in preparation two weeks ago. Naughty.
What a beautiful place. We went out on the boat, fished, swam in the rock pools, drank (probably way too much). I have not laughed so much in so long. It wasn't until we were driving home that I realized the "B/C bitch had stayed out of the way for a while.. Woohoo. Now, how to keep it gone??????? More holidays me thinks.
