Meltdowns

Hi wndsrfn, I reckon go back to your dragon boating - people are a lot more understanding than we give them credit for and if it was me I would make them a cheesecake slice or something (not as an apology, but to make me feel better!!!) Tell them you had a meltdown, it was suddenly too much and dont be embarrassed - life is too short!!! Get back there and enjoy it - your physical self needs it too :) - stress relief!!!!! As for your friends - that's what they are friends who have stuck with you, who would have wanted to assist you in any way they could but probably felt so totally useless, I'm sure you haven't driven them away. Why not get a couple of thank you cards and express to them what their friendship has meant and still means to you (sometimes its easier to say it in writing than verbally). Last of all and certainly not least of all - I have yet to read anywhere that there is a time limit on feelings, emotions, responses in relation to breast cancer or any other type of cancer. Our old lives were almost in a sense carefree until diagnosis then our realities changed. I choose to now look on my diagnosis and treatment as a wake up call to cherish each day, to laugh and to refuse to be serious!! I wish for you the ability to forgive yourself for being human, the perfect swell at the beach, and sand free cossies/wetsuit!!! All the best Xx Cath