Hi all, just re read all the comments and they are still very true. Everyday is a new adventure and a new step foward. I have recently come across a saying "Sometimes not getting what you want is what you need". I have worked through a lot, have amazing friends who continue to support me and keep me in their lives. I am now thinking that BC may have been the event to make me look hard at what I am doing and to do more of what I love and spend it with the people I love. You are all truly amazing.