Meltdowns

Hi there

I finished treatment 9 months ago and for me it is like I have PTSD. I had a few meltdowns going through treatment but on a whole I coped pretty well. Now I'm struggling. What the!!!! But the fact is I tried so hard to keep things positive and normal that I never really had time to acknowledge what was happening to me and just how serious my situation was.  I was so busy just getting through what I had to that I never took the time to think about what was happening. I too am finding it difficult to move forward. How can you when it hangs over your head like a dark cloud? I still have checks and appointments every 3 months for two years.  I still have to have scans and mammograms at least every 6 months, I'm tired and struggle physically with the damage that has been done to my body from treatment.  I don't think you can go through something like this and it not have an affect on you and change you. And more to the point I don't understand why others can't see that? It's interesting that we both started this journey in 2014 and seem to be in the same place at the moment. Apart from keeping the lines of communications open with your friends and telling them how you feel, I don't think the is much else we can do but go through it. As for the ones who say we should just get over it, well I tend to explain why I can't get over it and if they can't understand that then that's their problem not mine. I have lost a number of friends since this process began, as have many others. So be it. I don't have time to waste on people who don't care about me the way I cared about them or people who choose not to try to understand. Hang in there. We will get through just like we have everything else. Take care. Karen xox