Dear @gossy29
Welcome! Nice to have you on board - we know that all of us would prefer not to be here, but given circumstances, it’s a helpful and supportive place!
I’m eight years out from diagnosis and, from that perspective, the best cure for fear of recurrence is time! Fear of recurrence is to be expected at your stage. Anxiety about regular check ups and scans is also perfectly normal.
I found that doing what I could to keep
in general good health helped. I joined a gym! Mainly yoga and Pilates but it all helps. Eat well, reduce or cut out habits you know aren’t at all healthy! I was able, without much financial impact, to cut my enjoyable but demanding job down to four days a week. More ‘me’ time helped in all sorts of ways. At one point I met with a terrific counsellor for a few sessions - she got straight to the nub of things pretty quickly (mortality!) and gave me a few excellent tools that I still use. Nothing dramatic, but all of it has made me happier (yes, it is possible). I am still taking medication but hope to be off that in another two years. Gradually I have fretted less and been more philosophic about the future. Worrying about things that may never happen is an awful waste of time that could be better spent! Take care of yourself and keep looking forward. Best wishes.