It's absolutely normal. We are no longer health naive and that will never return.
Adjusting to our new normal is hard.
I decided I would really believe of myself as a survivor.
I changed my language. Instead of saying I've got breast cancer I started saying I had breast cancer.
I chose to believe I was cancer free rather than being preoccupied the cancer was growing.
It was a subtle mindshift but it worked.
Do I fear every pain is something more? Yes ...sometimes. Do I discuss with my Dr? Yes I do.
Have I had more scans than others to exclude mets?...absolutely.
My way of thinking...check out issues...then move on. If I have Mets...Well I'll deal with it then.
I now know how strong I am.
I still have down days. I mourned my loss of breasts and old hair. But I've accepted this now 4 years on and reclaimed my life. Breast cancer is no longer my focus daily. It does get better. X