Hi Tracey - glad to see you back!
Goodness don't beat yourself up! It's the roller coaster that we're all on and some days are better than others and we are all here to support. Yes I am similar in that I have coped extremely well with my diagnosis however I do feel sadness when I read some posts.
For me personally what I struggle with is the hidden extras of our treatment and medication, they give you a list so you are aware of what you may or may not get in the way of side effects but goodness even if it is only one side effect it is debilitating. Fatigue is the major one for me!
Hope you find your emotional recovery not too bumpy, take as long as you need, don't feel pressured to be positive as a result of someone suggesting you should be! We all get it!
Sending you a virtual hug, please take care and solace in your faith from Christine xx