Hi Tracey,
Thankyou so much for sharing such an honest & candid post.
I must admit that 1st time around, having been diagnosed with a low grade, stage 1 breast cancer that only required a lumpectomy & radiation therapy I just felt so lucky & positive.
But having been unexpectedly diagnosed with a new primary tumour in my 'other' breast at my 1 yr checkup a few weeks ago, I can relate all too well to those feelings of sadness, grief, shock, loss you mentioned.
Recognizing & embracing that all of those feelings (& more) are normal is indeed an important part of the journey towards recovery :)
Take Care
Mel xxx