@POSB24 I feel you ... the rollercoaster of BC is full on I’m recently diagnosed in August and find everything is effected.
My thoughts bounce a lot from hope to fear to hope and back I’ve got 6 more radio sessions then break then chemo and I’m feeling overwhelmed like will this ever stop, will I ever feel light and joyful like I used to. It’s like my brain has a lurking and loves to remind me hey you have a cancer then I try to reason saying well I evicted the cancer and now I have treatment either way all these new words, new thoughts and I’m still trying to make meaning out of it all. Mindfulness helps but hey we are human and we have some full on shit going on xx hang in there be kind to yourself xx