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Is that a light at the end of the tunnel??
To me a journey is getting from A to B at a leisurely manner....stopping off for a bit of sight seeing and long lunches.....what I have been through since 28th March has been a fast track nightmare heading for the chasm that has lost the bridge!! Oh I know that sounds melodramatic but I honestly don't know where last 4 months have gone. Started with Breast scan bus and the lovely technician explaining that if there is any problems I will called up for further investigation ( this is while she is holding my hand and patting with the other one - I smiled and said thanks and was thinking uh oh..oh well!! :) ) Further investigations the next week, 100k away, Bilateral lumpectomy followed, then oops DCIS hidden lets go mastectomy on one side...other was fine...just scar tissue from Lumpectomy 25 years ago! daughter and I decided to call breast that was leaving the building "Doris"..texted son post-op and said...Doris has left the building ..he came back...who is Doris?? Oops forgot to tell him her name...lol Last drain out a week following discharge...damn..infection and fluid build up...Iv Antibiotics and who needs needles to draw fluid out...its decided to gush out by itself!! Arm exercises not good enough...get thee to the Physio!! Oh the pain!! I'm sure the Physio degree includes a Unit of Fiendishness 101. :) So next step is Chemo .....and its starts today. I've arrived at the chasm but I'm seeing the bridge over it!! I am surprisingly calm (at the moment) I am not prepared to leave this world without a damn big fight! So lets see where I am after 6 treatments over 3 months! I haven't been alone with support from sisters , mother (shes 88 god love her!) friends and of course husband and my kids. - Even grandkids (4 - 10) know I have a "sore arm" and I get so many more hugs and kisses :) So my purpose in writing all this is I guess I needed to put it out into the universe that I have had pain, tears, fears and felt alone. I think this is my letter to me saying...get going girlfriend the next step has arrived and its time to take it...the bridge is there....trust!!
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- Hello @Scorpio101 all the best with treatment number 2, hoping all went well today
- You've got this.
- Good luck @scorpio101 Mxx
- You go girl!
- @Scorpio101 you've got this !!
good luck xxx - Dear self, time to face Treatment 2 for second time. Got to get those washed, ironed, deodorised, re decorated and re elasticised big girls pants on and go get 'em!! I think I have gone through all the tests this past week possible! Got to be healthy so I can fill my self with toxins. :( STOP woman!! You can do this....just get off your butt and go!! :#
- Enjoy your turbans & scarves when they arrive - pics would be good! ;) I hope your Hubby's hand checkup was OK. Bandsaws always win! :(
Vent away .... It is Great to hear you sounding more upbeat today .... all the best for your ongoing treatment xxxx Thinking of you xx - Echo, CT, antibiotics and a head shave of last remaining hair, plus grandparents day at school and follow up on husbands hand...been busy couple of days. :) Saturday morning and I shall enjoy the weekend and start the psych build up for delayed #2 in a day or 2 - after Dr follow-ups. My awesome new turbans and scarves are due to arrive on Monday so that's a positive! Thanks for continued support ladies. Its such a great feeling knowing there are people out there who are going through the same thing and can relate, support, plain speak about it and even swear on occasions with me. :) I love my family and friends but hugs and "I'm here's" just sometimes doesn't cut it. This allows me to vent, get my mind clear, and relax with it all and I Thank You and this network for letting me have that. Love and hugs to you all xxx
- @Scorpio101 sorry to hear they've delayed treatment 2 . You would have been all ready for it mentally . Hope your WCC is doing its thing for you and you'll be right to go in a week. Xx
- That's a bugger @Scorpio101. Takes so long to get psyched up to have the plan changed at the last minute,
xoxoxxo
