Is that a light at the end of the tunnel??

To me a journey is getting from A to B at a leisurely manner....stopping off for a bit of sight seeing and long lunches.....what I have been through since 28th March has been a fast track nightmare heading for the chasm that has lost the bridge!!  Oh I know that sounds melodramatic but I honestly don't know where last 4 months have gone.  Started with Breast scan bus and the lovely technician explaining that if there is any problems I will called up for further investigation ( this is while she is holding my hand and patting with the other one - I smiled and said thanks and was thinking uh oh..oh well!! :) )  Further investigations the next week, 100k away,  Bilateral lumpectomy followed,  then oops DCIS hidden lets go mastectomy on one side...other was fine...just scar tissue from Lumpectomy 25 years ago!  daughter and I decided to call breast that was leaving the building "Doris"..texted son post-op and said...Doris has left the building ..he came back...who is Doris??  Oops forgot to tell him her name...lol   Last drain out a week following discharge...damn..infection and fluid build up...Iv Antibiotics and who needs needles to draw fluid out...its decided to gush out by itself!!   Arm exercises not good enough...get thee to the Physio!!  Oh the pain!!  I'm sure the Physio degree includes a Unit of  Fiendishness 101.  :)  So next step is Chemo .....and its starts today. I've arrived at the chasm but I'm seeing the bridge over it!!  I am surprisingly calm (at the moment)  I am not prepared to leave this world without a damn big fight!  So lets see where I am after 6 treatments over 3 months!  I haven't been alone with support from sisters , mother (shes 88 god love her!) friends and of course husband and my kids.  - Even grandkids  (4 - 10) know I have a "sore arm" and I get  so many more hugs and kisses :)  So my purpose in writing all this is I guess I needed to put it out into the universe that I have had pain, tears, fears and felt alone.  I think this is my letter to me saying...get going girlfriend the next step has arrived and its time to take it...the bridge is there....trust!!