So all week I have been taking neurofen to dull a persistently throbbing tooth. In my heart of hearts I know I have to make a dentist appointment. But you know what? I was diagnosed end April, double mastectomy a fortnight later, reconstruction 3 weeks ago. Amidst all that I had root canal and a tooth extraction. And I’m over it. I’m over being poked and prodded and jabbed with needles. I’m over everybody else having charge of my body (even though I know it’s for my own good!). It took me a while to realise why I was stalling, but that’s it, I just want to be the only person taking care of me for a while. I know it’s irrational, and on Monday I will make the appointment...but in the meantime I’ll pop the pills and just “be”. Just venting - anyone else felt the same?

@Mimsy68 I too am fed up of being poked, prodded and pricked. I would just like to get off the breast cancer treadmill and have a "normal" life.Take care and warm Kimberley wishes to you.Annie

So there you go, braved the dentist....I told him that if he said the words root canal I would cry and I would then say no! Luckily just a filling it seems. Funny how I was so strong all through my diagnosis and surgery and now I’m being a big girl’s blouse! I can’t even imagine having to do radio and chemo, you guys are Uber strong! Big hugs to you all, thank you for supporting me in my vent!

Well done you, @Mimsy68 Sounds like he was not too worried about the throbbing - and hope the filling does the trick!@Sarnicad - all the best for your rads ..... I sorta got used to showing my bits to all & sundry - cos I had different people most days! LOL Does that make me an exhibitionist? ;)

Yes definitely felt like that. So sick of all the appointments and just want to be left alone. :#

@LMK74 I get it. I'm looking forward to having nipples but the thought of a fourth anaesthetic in less than twelve months, and all the poking and prodding that goes with it, turns my stomach. My fipples can wait until next year...

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kmakm
Member
7 years ago
Fingers crossed for you @Vangirl. Hope it all goes smoothly. See you on the other side! K xox
Mimsy68
Member
7 years ago
Good luck Vangirl!
Vangirl
Member
7 years ago
@kmakm I'm just settling in to my hospital bed - surgery first thing tomorrow morning!
kmakm
Member
7 years ago
Hey @Vangirl, how was your surgery? How're you getting on? K xox
kmakm
Member
7 years ago
I quite agree @Sarnicad! Manners, proper procedure and respect. K xox
Sarnicad
Member
7 years ago
@Vangirl I had my meeting with the nurse today and mentioned it to her and said the person just needed to alert me to the fact that it was someone different and I’d have been fine with it, it was the fact that I’m lying there one boob fully out and the other partially covered. She offered for me to make a formal written report but I’ve left it with her to inform the practice manager. Mind you if it happens again I will go written.

@Silba @kmakm I’m generally happy to be the students guinea pig too when I had my planning meeting there was someone learning and I was happy to facilitate that. I just don’t want randoms popping up without the courtesy of letting me know they’re there especially when I’m in glasses that prevent me from seeing them until I take the glasses off
kmakm
Member
7 years ago
Good on you @Silba. I almost always say yes to students too. K xox
Silba
Member
7 years ago
I have been asked several times for student nurses to pock at me since I have a Port for Chemo , and I'm a good practice guinea pig.:)
I'm taking the view that , yes I hate been prodded and pocked and talk about me as I don't have a voice , but then someone else before me had it worse so that I could have this treatment, paying it forward for the next person that gets this horrible disease.
I think of myself as a walking petri dish, it could be worse..... I know you can hate me too :wink:
Vangirl
Member
7 years ago
@Sarnicad they kept doing 'the old switcheroo' during my radiotherapy too. I found the radiotherapy part of my treatment most unsettling partly because of that.
Mimsy68
Member
7 years ago
Soooooo with you, Beryl. I actually started crying in the car last week when my surgeon said he didn’t want to see me for 5 months! I felt like a kid being left alone in the big bad world! Crazy stuff!