Hey @Chevvy, I can relate to exactly how you are feeling. I cried absolute buckets when I lost my hair, I tried to hold it in and be strong, but then I just let the tears roll. You need to allow yourself to feel sad. It sounds like you see a lot of challenging situations in your job, but you are now facing your own challenge and it’s really important that you allow yourself time to adjust and feel the whole range of emotions.
I finished chemo last May and the loss of my hair hit me hard. People around me tried to offer comfort, but to me, it wasn’t just hair, it was part of my identity. It’s hard to put in words, but just know that I hear you. Things will get better. I enlisted a great psychologist who really helped to clarify how I was feeling. I bought a fabulous wig - people who didn’t know me did not know I was having chemo. My hair started growing during taxol treatment. I wished I was someone who could have just rolled with losing my hair, but it turned out I wasn’t and that’s ok.
You are not a failure, you are a person who is going through something that is really testing every ounce of you. What would you say to one of your clients who may face something similar? Without actually meeting you, I bet you would be incredibly compassionate, validate their feelings and explain that this road is tricky, but it is temporary and you would reassure them that they will get there. You will get there. Be kind to yourself, reach out to your support crew and take care. M x