Hello @Chevvy, you are allowed to cry. You have been through so much. People don't understand how much our hair means to us. I never really liked my thick wavy out of control hair until it started falling out. It becomes such an obvious thing that we are sick when people look at us with sad eyes. You will get through this, even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. I would put my head down when I was out because I couldn't always handle peoples sad looks at me. Now my hair has started growing again and I think of it as another thing I overcame and became stronger for. Sending you hugs xxx