@Nadi you are not silly at all. I was diagnosed late last year. I remember my amazing GP said to me, I was very teary every time I went to update him how I was doing. He said my emotions were all normal at the time, I was coping well. But if I suddenly become very emotional 1 or 2 years later which quite common, he will refer me for a psychologist.
I don't think we can ever forget what we have been through emotionally and physically. I can see myself will be like you this time next year.
Big gentle hugs for you! Xxx