@Teigra
I'd have to say No it never really leaves you. As time goes on we learn to park it somewhere in the background where a little niggle awakens the OMG - I have found now I have such a heightened awareness of my body that when a new creak, ache, pain or something or other surfaces I have to say now think about this, what did you do to create that pang.
This year is my 3rd review (next week) and I am probably at my most relaxed I have been. It is an acceptance and it is what it is attitude that helps but it does get awakened occasionally.
Hopefully you can find some coping mechanisms to park it and enjoy the everyday
As to reconstruction well that is totally personal. For me it was immediate with expanders so I was in it from the start whereas from what I can gather you are wondering if you should or not! I would say don't treat it as a BC intrusion but as a new you coming out of a crap time.
Talk to the BCNA nurses on the helpline "Need support or information about breast cancer, for yourself, a friend or family member? Call
BCNA 1800 500 258 or email
contact@
bcna.org.au."
and perhaps consider joining (if you haven't done so already) http://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/group/1-choosing-breast-reconstructionTake care