It most definitely gets better and I feel reconstruction mentally helps with the mental healing also. I've still to have nipple reconstruction and wonder if I should continue...but I know I will be happier once done and not constantly noticing their absence every time I change. I think new life makes us think about the future. That's normal. But hopefully for you as time moves on the dark thoughts will too. Forever changed...yes indeed...our sense of safety. ...never the same, but most learn to live with it and begin to see a future with us in it. Kath x