Fear : does it ever leave you?

Hi Teigra, I was diagnosed in April 2012 and finished treatment (apart from 5 years of tamoxifen) about 6 months later. So it's been about 6 years. No I don't think the fear ever completely leaves you but it definitely lessens over time. It's not something I think about daily or even weekly now. but it's there in the back of my mind. This might sound weird but I try to use it as a motivating factor to live a healthier life. Since my diagnosis and treatment I've improved my diet, cut back on my chardonnay consumption and really stepped up my exercise. I know none of these things are a guarantee against recurrence but working hard to stick to them makes me feel a bit safer. It's one of the reasons I drop in here from time to time too, to remind myself to be vigilant. Also, I suppose at 52 now I feel like people our age are getting vulnerable to all kinds of diseases. In a way I feel like a BC recurrence is just one thing I have to watch out for. We get older, things go wrong unfortunately. But on the other hand, being more conscious or my mortality, how precious my life and health are, also makes me value the good things in life more. How lovely to have a granddaughter. I hope I will get to be a grandmother one day too  (although not too soon, my oldest is only 21). I guess all I can add is take good care of yourself and try not to dwell too much on it and make the most of the good and precious things in your life. X