extra long summer days

I know what you mean. It feels like a crossroads in your life but you aren't going up any paths just sitting on the sidelines marking time. I suppose Easter is supposed to be a joyous time but with no little kids of our own and no grandkids yet our big boys aren't exactly up for Easter egg hunts any more and since I am prone to any infections with treatment, no one really comes over to visit either.

Mind you a phone call or a private face book message or even an encouraging comment from my brother and sister would be nice but only my online aquarium keeping friends and older life long friends offer any open comments or support. I feel kind of dirty with cancer because my own brother and sister wont contact me and only my mother turns up every now and again to see how I am and do the family report to them on the phone. Fortunately hubby has a big family and they do ring him from time to time so at least he has some support there.

I've been told the big fishing classic on this weekend there are a couple of women there helping with catering with their hair all missing, obviously from chemo but I just don't have the will or the energy to want to go up to meet 2000 people. Maybe next year.  Perhaps it is just the drugs talking and we'll all come good one of these days?