extra long summer days

I am sorry you have been feeling down Michelina.

You are allowed to feel that way and to express it though - nothing wrong with it and I actually do admire you have the strength to vocalise It and not just internalise it and bottle it all in like some of us do.

I hope it changes for you and maybe worth trying to get out of the house while this decent weather holds... there is nothing like fresh air and nature. Sounds like your hubby is a good guy so maybe worthwhile asking him to organise an outing for the 2 of you :)

My hubby is absolutelly terrible (or should I say 'hass been terrible and hopeless for the past 16 years) and if left to his own devices we would sit indoors every weekend staring at thw TV but after my diagnosis (few weeks ago) I told him I needed all the help I could get and needed him to work extra hard to both keep my spirits up and to make sure he organises at least few hours outdoors where he has to plan the food, transport and the activities and how to entertain me.

I know it sounds selfish but I told the 'boy' it is time for me to be selfish and for him to be unselfish if I am to get through this so it has to be his job to keep me in good spirits.  Funnly enough, i expected him to give up and whinge that it is all too hard but he did step up and has been very supportive, encouraging and has organised outings every single weekend making me feel both loved and safe. Not to mwntion how soending few hours sitting on a beach, or in a National Park or on some cliffs overlooking the icean with just fresh air and mother nature arround us has done wonders and lifted my spirits every time :)

I hope you find your 'mojo' soon and, in the meanwhile, just hang in there. You are dealing with some heavy duty circumstances not many can handle so nothing wrong with feeling a little bit down every now and then