Hi Dawn. I've often thought about you, and recall the beautiful photos from your daughter's wedding. I'm glad you've popped in back here.
I felt I lost sight of who I was, though that happened before BC arrived, due to the tsunami of trauma that my family had gone through. It was BC that stripped away the last veneer of pretence and defence that I had. I am in the process of getting back to the things I value the most about me. Some of those are old and some of those are new, discovered during the BC experience. Sometimes it's confronting! Sometimes it's difficult.
You will get there. I was as miserable as sin at the end of chemo. All my friends kept saying how happy I must be; it was the the good folk here who understood.
You will get there but it's important to be kind to yourself, possibly a little bit selfish, and if you feel you're stuck, find a counsellor of some sort to have a chat to. It doesn't have to be face to face; there are some terrific phone services available. Or you might be a support group person.
Stay in touch here lovely, and hang in there. You will be OK. K xox