Hi @Nadi - like @kmakm I'm so grateful for the advice and support of everyone on this forum and particularly those who have gone through it all and can speak from all that experience.
I hope that it turn, everyone who has commented here has also given you some support and reassurance.
Please keep checking in every now and then like you've been doing and I'm sure you'll find that there will be times when there's a discussion or a question that you will just feel is right for you to comment on or contribute to - in fact, when you're less prolific and suddenly find a discussion that you're particularly drawn to participating in, your contributions will be that much more amazing and worthwhile because it will be something that's really close to your heart.
Wishing you all the best,
Yvette xxx
