@kimmi17 It's fine to cry. I felt cheated that finally my husband and I were going to have more alone trips away ...and plan even a cruise. But it is all on hold. During my chemo was my worst time. It makes you mentally and physically miserable. I still have 8 months of Herceptin to go...but already am starting to feel more positive and dare to think of life after cancer treatment. You will too. Meanwhile do your best. Put on something pretty. Do your face...if up to it ..go out for tea or to the movies. Just the 2 of you. Do something you love each day. You are fighting ....crying is just letting out that built up fear and sadness. Positivety will come once chemo is finished. Take care. Kath x