Bad day
Really having a rough time of it lately. I thought I was coping really well after my single mastectomy on 27 July, but it's like the shock, anger and despair have really only just kicked in. I find my...
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When my partner said he could careless about my breast..I meant that in a wonderful fantastic way LOL, he doesnt see that as any definition of who I am at all. So in his mind he thinks get rid of it for peace of mind and move forward. He has a gorgeous way of looking at life and I feel so incredibly loved and blessed. I think his culture makes him this way as he is from the Cook Islands...something more exotic hahahaha! Sorry bout that!
Ok so yes the pain omg is full on, how far from chemo are you?? Im 9 months and I have to say to you, it is actually improving the pain isnt as bad. The other thing is too, I am on Arimidex and side effects are sadly joint pain. My Oncologist explained to me how the treatment all goes together, depending on your diagnosis of course. But the medication at the end of treatment and generally for 5yrs is like putting a bolt on the door once they have gotten rid of cancer you see? I honestly had zero side effects on Tamoxifen, I honestly didn't. I have more on Arimidex but I dont give in to it. Somedays sure are damn hard so I take a day at a time.
I also dont care to hear 'stay strong' or omg you are 'so strong' The fact is every person is different and handles life differently, whether you are insanely positive all the time or not is completely irrelevant. A psychologist at my rehab said, the point is, its not about positivity, its about allowing the individual to handle this situation the way theyve handled all their life situations. She explained pretending to be positive all the time isnt natural and yet people expect that?? they dont allow you to be sad or down but tell you to be grateful? hmmm and I say...walk in my shoes! there are days more so now I am grateful. Please believe me things do get better and they do improve and Ive been through the depths of hell to here and its not over yet but Im getting there. As for back to normal...Ive realized that doesnt happen, its a new normal, so I look at it like a project now of how Im going to redefine myself this new improved version of what I was and you know why?? because I found myself through this and found a way to finally sit with me all my flaws and all the wonderful things about me too...and found so much love for me that I never had before...finally I am important, instead of last. Uuugh so hang in there!!! Hugs Melinda xo
Ok so yes the pain omg is full on, how far from chemo are you?? Im 9 months and I have to say to you, it is actually improving the pain isnt as bad. The other thing is too, I am on Arimidex and side effects are sadly joint pain. My Oncologist explained to me how the treatment all goes together, depending on your diagnosis of course. But the medication at the end of treatment and generally for 5yrs is like putting a bolt on the door once they have gotten rid of cancer you see? I honestly had zero side effects on Tamoxifen, I honestly didn't. I have more on Arimidex but I dont give in to it. Somedays sure are damn hard so I take a day at a time.
I also dont care to hear 'stay strong' or omg you are 'so strong' The fact is every person is different and handles life differently, whether you are insanely positive all the time or not is completely irrelevant. A psychologist at my rehab said, the point is, its not about positivity, its about allowing the individual to handle this situation the way theyve handled all their life situations. She explained pretending to be positive all the time isnt natural and yet people expect that?? they dont allow you to be sad or down but tell you to be grateful? hmmm and I say...walk in my shoes! there are days more so now I am grateful. Please believe me things do get better and they do improve and Ive been through the depths of hell to here and its not over yet but Im getting there. As for back to normal...Ive realized that doesnt happen, its a new normal, so I look at it like a project now of how Im going to redefine myself this new improved version of what I was and you know why?? because I found myself through this and found a way to finally sit with me all my flaws and all the wonderful things about me too...and found so much love for me that I never had before...finally I am important, instead of last. Uuugh so hang in there!!! Hugs Melinda xo