Bad day
Really having a rough time of it lately. I thought I was coping really well after my single mastectomy on 27 July, but it's like the shock, anger and despair have really only just kicked in. I find my...
Forum Discussion
Hey!
Well I must admit, after a recurrence and facing a mastectomy early next year, I completely understand how you are feeling. It seems like things have happened quickly for you? that you havent had a chance to get your head around anything? I can honestly say, I too look in the mirror and I no longer recognise who I am anymore, Ive put on 5kg thanks to Chemo and thrown into menopause. Short hair. Physically am in pain most days and struggle to walk let alone work 3 days a week. The hardest part of this journey for me and its been since 2011 with a recurrence in 2015, is facing a mastectomy. It is such an individual and personal thing, for me, Im emotional about it, as I feel this is a huge part of my femininity. But you know what Ive realized too??? as much as I love my boobs and I have to say that as I always have LOL. They don't define me as my long blonde hair didnt either. I am left grieving the loss of everything that I was.... BUT I now have a chance to redefine myself. It is damn hard every step absolutely...but it starts with the grieving of the loss of the journey and most importantly through all of those emotions no matter how bad, loving yourself even more. That is soo hard to do, but its how I started to look at myself 9 months post chemo now. So I urge you to find those little things that make you feel good in your soul, the moments you feel feminine. Nurture is so key and a day at a time.
We all get it i think thats whats so great about being here, is sharing our journeys, our triumphs and especially our heartaches and pain...
Im blessed to have a partner who I only met a few months prior to my last diagnosis so going through all of this with someone new was incredibly hard on so many levels, my children were amazing too. He could careless of me losing my breast, Im having a Diep Flap reconstruction done. He says it doesnt define me....and I know it doesnt...but it matters to me. So its not about them or anyone else, its about you and its about allowing yourself to feel the extreme lows knowing its normal and all part of it and slowly moving forward one foot in front of the other and discovering this new woman you are becoming forever changed through the cirumstances.
The biggest of hugs to you. Melinda xoxo
Well I must admit, after a recurrence and facing a mastectomy early next year, I completely understand how you are feeling. It seems like things have happened quickly for you? that you havent had a chance to get your head around anything? I can honestly say, I too look in the mirror and I no longer recognise who I am anymore, Ive put on 5kg thanks to Chemo and thrown into menopause. Short hair. Physically am in pain most days and struggle to walk let alone work 3 days a week. The hardest part of this journey for me and its been since 2011 with a recurrence in 2015, is facing a mastectomy. It is such an individual and personal thing, for me, Im emotional about it, as I feel this is a huge part of my femininity. But you know what Ive realized too??? as much as I love my boobs and I have to say that as I always have LOL. They don't define me as my long blonde hair didnt either. I am left grieving the loss of everything that I was.... BUT I now have a chance to redefine myself. It is damn hard every step absolutely...but it starts with the grieving of the loss of the journey and most importantly through all of those emotions no matter how bad, loving yourself even more. That is soo hard to do, but its how I started to look at myself 9 months post chemo now. So I urge you to find those little things that make you feel good in your soul, the moments you feel feminine. Nurture is so key and a day at a time.
We all get it i think thats whats so great about being here, is sharing our journeys, our triumphs and especially our heartaches and pain...
Im blessed to have a partner who I only met a few months prior to my last diagnosis so going through all of this with someone new was incredibly hard on so many levels, my children were amazing too. He could careless of me losing my breast, Im having a Diep Flap reconstruction done. He says it doesnt define me....and I know it doesnt...but it matters to me. So its not about them or anyone else, its about you and its about allowing yourself to feel the extreme lows knowing its normal and all part of it and slowly moving forward one foot in front of the other and discovering this new woman you are becoming forever changed through the cirumstances.
The biggest of hugs to you. Melinda xoxo