All clear

@arpie @SoldierCrab @"Annie C" @kitkatb I’m overwhelmed by your support & I thank you deeply. I think I’m facing every emotion possible today. I think I thought I would be overly excited & elated & when I didn’t feel that, I wasn’t sure what was going on. The loads lifting with the help of you lovely ladies!! 
@"Annie C" I send a big hug to you & hope all goes well with your recent health challenge ❤️

HI @Doodoo   Congrats on getting the all clear.   Wow give yourself a big pat on the back for all you have been through and come out the other end of it.   I don't know what to say but I understand how you feel as I sure to hell didn't feel elated once treatment finished.   I had 3 weeks away over Christmas with my sister and even the day before I still didn't want to hop on the plane at all but pushed myself and it was truly the best thing I did.  It gave me that time out away from home and a different mindset.  I came back and put all my cancer paperwork in a box and shoved it in the back of the wardrobe.   Give yourself some time we all have those days but hopefully they will become less and less for you.  Big hugs  xo

@Doodoo
At the end of my treatment I found myself questioning "is that all?"

Letting go and surviving was the hardest until I realised that "yes, that is all. You are fortunate".

I have had many a private conversation with @arpie,  and through our many "chats" ( via PM) she has bolstered and provided much support to me. I suspect that she will be much embrassed by this.

Eighteen months later I now find myself facing another health challenge, but I now tell myself that I faced breast cancer, stared it down and I will do the same with this new challenge.

During treatment we are focussed on getting through it. Survivorship is just as hard. There were times when I questioned "why me, why did my life have to change so much"? I am NOT a "why not me" person. 

The one thing I have learnt through all this is that tomorrow always comes and it is not as bad as I thought it would be.

I cannot give you any platitudes, I can only say there will come a time when the memory of all that has happened will not hurt so much.

Big hugs and warm Kimberley wishes to you.

Annie

hi Doodoo it is quite common to feel like you do .... I felt as flat as a tack when I got told all clear.... 
If you need support seek some professional counselling I did 

Congratulations you are now officially a Warrior .... Survivorship is not easy at times but we grow stronger each day.... 

Soldiercrab

Love ya @arpie! You always make me feel better 😊
i actually just had a little melt down after reading that & I feel lighter. you’re right, I’m over it all xx

WOOHOO!!  Good news, tho, @Doodoo - everyone reacts differently ..... you are probably just 'over it all' just now.  

Chill out, treat yourself to a nice meal out & a movie ..... and just keep doing what you love doing

All the best xxx