HI @Doodoo Congrats on getting the all clear. Wow give yourself a big pat on the back for all you have been through and come out the other end of it. I don't know what to say but I understand how you feel as I sure to hell didn't feel elated once treatment finished. I had 3 weeks away over Christmas with my sister and even the day before I still didn't want to hop on the plane at all but pushed myself and it was truly the best thing I did. It gave me that time out away from home and a different mindset. I came back and put all my cancer paperwork in a box and shoved it in the back of the wardrobe. Give yourself some time we all have those days but hopefully they will become less and less for you. Big hugs xo