Afraid to finish chemo
This will sound crazy but with 7 taxol to go - 4 dose dense AC and 5 taxol behind- I am afraid to finish. People say to me ‘you must be just wanting it over’ and I can’t explain that actually I don’t....
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Hi @ddon totally understand your feelings - I finished chemo in Jan and had my last radiotherapy on Thursday - so everyone is saying " great - congratulations, etc!" and I don't know what i think - thought I would be relieved to get to the end of active treatment, thought I'd been coping well (or reasonably well) - but then on Wednesday - one day before finishing had a total melt down - couldn't stop crying over nothing (and unfortunately was at work which made it worse).
Went home - cried to my husband who was very sympathetic as usual - but as we all know if you haven't been through it, its very difficult to understand what goes through our minds.
Best thing I can say is I went on Thursday - had my last session and then on Friday went back to work with happy face and much happier heart - felt really positive - so hope that lasts.
Take care you will get through those last few treatments and none of us know what the future holds (as I write this I have Doris Day singing Que Sera Sera - whatever will be - will be - going through my head)
Happy thoughts and wishes to you xx
Went home - cried to my husband who was very sympathetic as usual - but as we all know if you haven't been through it, its very difficult to understand what goes through our minds.
Best thing I can say is I went on Thursday - had my last session and then on Friday went back to work with happy face and much happier heart - felt really positive - so hope that lasts.
Take care you will get through those last few treatments and none of us know what the future holds (as I write this I have Doris Day singing Que Sera Sera - whatever will be - will be - going through my head)
Happy thoughts and wishes to you xx