Accepting your New Self

Making a new you doesn't even remotely sound easy. It isn't and you are brave and honest to share your feelings  - clearly many others have experienced the same sense of loss. I can't advise about new boobs, I had no reconstruction and am happy about that. My body is fine, actually in better nick than before, apart from a bloody big scar, but I feel the same way about that as I do a few wrinkles - I've earned them. My hair changed on and on and on, then I realised that it just wasn't the same and changed my hairdo to suit. It used to be thick and strong (OK coarse!) and now it's still pretty thick but much finer. I had worn my hair much the same way for nearly 20 years, but my new style suits me better and I really like the colour I have finally landed at (much less grey). You will feel like a real you again, it just takes time to get there!! You think treatment is forever, then it's over, you wait for the resumption of normal service that doesn't come and you discover that you still have a ways to go. That saying I've seen often on this site applies - don't look back, you are not going that way. The old you was pretty spectacular, the new one will be outstanding! Take care, Alison.