Just need to write it down.

Soooooooooooooooo I am here. I have never really been one for group discussions or looking for help with stuff. I am the one every one else comes to.

My world changed on the 1st March when I went to the GP with a swollen left breast and lumps. I swear I never felt them before. But now I doubt myself. And the what if started. I must of missed them.

Everything has moved so fast since then. I have had every scan possible Brain, Bone, whole body. That was on the 15th. Went back to the Surgeon that night and was told it wasn't any where else, Which was a great relief. But he asked if I knew I had Arthritis in my neck back and my feet of all places. I didn't . I haven't been to the Dr for years. Never had to. If I had a cold I took Coldral and Soldiered on.

I was booked into have a Mastectomy on the 18th. The Operation went well. I actually was quite calm about it all. Apparently there were 6 cancers in my breast how the heck did I not feel that. More self doubt. They took 10 nodes and only 2 had cancer. Which my Breast Nurse said was good.

Yesterday I was back to the hospital for fluid build up which may be an Infection. So again I was thinking did I notice it when I thought I did or was it there the day before and I missed or ignored it.

My Hubby has been great through all this. He has played soo many games of Patients on his tablet waiting around for me to go through all the tests etc its not funny.

So this is the start of my Journey. It has helped to write some of it down. There is soo much more going on in my head tho.

Maybe next time.

Thanks for listening.

primek
Member
9 years ago
Welcome. I recall dreaming I had breast cancer and often wonder "did I feel something and ignore it?" But I didn't. ..it's just that self doubt and fear that creeps in overnight ...when you just can't sleep after diagnosis. Take each day as it comes. Great stuff that surgery is done. Now for the next step. Thanks for sharing. Kath x
melclarity
Member
9 years ago
@Janny54 Hey there!! Welcome!! sounds like quite a whirlwind already!! Im glad to hear scans were clear elsewhere what a relief! I had a Bone Density scan 6 months after finishing Chemo and it showed Osteoporosis in my neck and lower back...UMMMM LOL I had no clue!!!! always had pain there but apparently Chemo caused it. So Vit D after finishing Chemo and everyday now and 2 Prolia injections a year for bone health. Looking forward to being fully recovered from mastectomy/diep flap recon so I can start back with my Exercise Physiologist. :) Step at a time and you'll be OK! Hugs Melinda xo
Anonymous
9 years ago
Sending you a big welcome and a huge cuddle, Trace xxx
Hulos
Member
9 years ago
Hi, my body scans also showed neck and back degenerating and nothing else,.
I am sure any women going thru a similar scan would have something show (after a certain age). I just think its normal that our bones start to show some wear and tear as years go.
I am so happy to hear your op went well as it gives me some comfort for when i have mine done, i must admit the thought of it scares me.
Keep well and take care..xoxoxo
iserbrown
Member
9 years ago
Afraser
Member
9 years ago
Sorry you have joined us but welcome nevertheless! I can sympathise with the soldiering on attitude. Many of us have been healthy and very active before diagnosis. Many of us are still healthy and active! And cancer is not so easily found as you might imagine - dense breasts, lumpy breasts, many things can conspire to disguise. Don't look back, look forward.

Fluid build up is not uncommon after surgery. Your body is producing fluid and nutrients to help you heal (think of the fluid in a blister). Unfortunately the bad bugs we all have in our systems think this is all their Christmases come at once! They settle into the nice warm wet fluid and you can get an infection. Keep an eye on it, you may need antibiotics, you may need fluid drained, if you have a breast care nurse talk to her about it. Come here any time. Best wishes.