Hi @SharrynB, so sorry you are going through this alone. What a hard thing with covid iso on top of your diagnosis. That is just terrible. Breast cancer takes us all by surprise. We never think it will happen to us but here it is.
You are right to vent here as we know how hard that first phase is while you are waiting for surgery and treatment. Waiting is the pits. I cried for 2 wks when diagnosed in April 2020. It was during lockdown. I was lucky to be with my husband so not alone so to speak but it left lonely all the same. I had surgery and chemo during lockdown too so wasn't able to have visitors etc. It was hard.
Do you know if you have early breath cancer, the grade etc. Sounds like you have a treatment plan worked out. Where are you located? Maybe if you add that to your profile you may find other members near you for support.
How are you spending your iso time? We all usually say to people newly diagnosed to keep busy but that's hard if you are in one room or in a unit on your own especially if you are sick from covid. Try not to use dr google as there is so much misinformation out there and each of our cancers is unique to us.
Are you a movie watcher or into series to help distract. Do you read? You may want to do some light exercises in your room to help prepare for surgery. Exercise is important to recovery from all this and if you can start after your covid symptoms stop that would be good.
How's your friend and family support? Are there people you can call to chat with about it all. I had some good and bad support from family and friends but this online group was fantastic so it's good to reach out.
Bummer about the surgeon. Pity you haven't met yet. Can you arrange a telephone health appointment with them as a video call?
I really feel for your situation. How many more days are you in iso?
Have you tried meditation? I took it up during treatment and found it most helpful.
Best wishes to you. 💐