Guilt

Like you, I had a very quick diagnosis and went from the suggestion that I have a lumpectomy in my left breast  then it was decided that a mastectomy would be more beneficial as the biopsy showed different cancers in that breast to a last minute MRI that showed another mass in my right breast.  So I chose to have both breasts removed with the right untested.  It turns out that was probably a lifesaving decision as the three different cancers in the left beast were all contained and I would probably have only needed hormone therapy however, the undiagnosed right breast has HER 2 positive cancer lurking in it,  So the roller coaster ride has been extremely traumatic and am a bit concerned about not getting the right information I need to keep my head tightly screwed onto my shoulders.  I haven’t slept since my diagnosis back in 25/9 and am now trying all sorts of prescribed drugs but to no avail at this stage.  So being so totally exhausted doesn’t help one’s mental state.  
I start my 12 weeks of weekly chemo next week plus the targeted drug herseptin every three weeks and that will continue for the nine months after I finish my chemo.  
so it’s certainly looking like a long hard battle.  
but suddenly oh so comforting reading other people stories and how,to,deal,with some of the issues.