Invasion of the body snatcher
Mimsy68
Member Posts: 6 ✭
So all week I have been taking neurofen to dull a persistently throbbing tooth. In my heart of hearts I know I have to make a dentist appointment. But you know what? I was diagnosed end April, double mastectomy a fortnight later, reconstruction 3 weeks ago. Amidst all that I had root canal and a tooth extraction. And I’m over it. I’m over being poked and prodded and jabbed with needles. I’m over everybody else having charge of my body (even though I know it’s for my own good!). It took me a while to realise why I was stalling, but that’s it, I just want to be the only person taking care of me for a while. I know it’s irrational, and on Monday I will make the appointment...but in the meantime I’ll pop the pills and just “be”. Just venting - anyone else felt the same?
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Yes definitely felt like that. So sick of all the appointments and just want to be left alone.
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Totally get it. I had to go to the dentist about 3 or 4 weeks ago as I had broken a tooth and filling. My dentist is the gentlest man but was so damn hard to make the appointment and go.1
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I don't mind going to the dentist. You get to keep your clothes on and the dentist is restricted to one part of your body!7
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Yes...the part that bites!4
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Yep, I loathe being touched by strangers. I don't give a rat's arse if they have seen it all before, I'm not a bloody hologram or a piece of meat and the whole business of presenting myself for inspection makes me rigid with displeasure. I probably present as hostile--thats because I am.
It takes so little to make me start snarling and snapping; the slightest hint of manhandling or thoughtless indifference to the tattered remnants of my dignity and my blood pressure goes through the roof, my fists clench and my tongue becomes razor sharp. It takes all my strength not to turn into a 5'10" 80kg version of that cartoon Tassie devil.
I need a sign to hang around my neck; ''Handle with care--not suitable for beginners."14 -
I'm going in for my mastectomy + DIEP a week from now and the thought of giving over my bodily control and decision making capability for days on end sets me on edge almost as much as the thought of the surgery itself.
So over it since starting treatment in March.1 -
I hate the dentist at the best of times and my dentist is the most gentle end patient man. I have sensitive teeth so have to get numbed before I can even have a clean and I make him use numbing cream. I used to have a needle phobia but then started donating plasma so got much better with blood tests etc and that is the biggest needle in the world. Post cancer the needle phobia is back though after endless catheter insertions and after my surgery I also now have drain phobia
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Oh my gosh, @Mimsy68 - you've been thru the mill & back!! I am surprised they did the root canal during your active treatment, to be honest, as the chance of infection would be increased, I reckon!
Coming from a family of dentists (father, brother, uncle, grandfather, godfather .....) I STILL HATE GOING TO THE DENTIST! I used to cry when my dad gave me injections - and go rigid when being given one, even now (as I can't stand NOT having my gum numbed for drilling!) ..... I've always had the worst teeth in my whole family (I think it goes back to me being born 3 months premmie - the tooth lining may not have been developed enough?) So I've always had a mouth full of fillings.
However - I would suggest you definitely see your dentist (or at least your GP) - as you could well have an infection in the root canal & be in serious need of antibiotics. 1 -
I so get this. I hate going to the dentist but even if I loved going I would hate it at the moment. I too am sick of the poking and prodding. I too want control of what is happening. I too want to punch the next person who hurts me unnecessarily. Just writing this post makes me want to cry over what I no longer have control over. Sometimes I want to shout at the medical person "I am me!"2
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@Vangirl I started my treatment mid May and am having my mastectomy/anxiallary clearance in November. I am already so over the pain pushed upon me I am blocking the operation out. I realise this isn't healthy but just at the moment I don't care.0
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@Blossom1961 My heart goes out to you, it really is a wretched disease. Bloody awful. Hang in there and I hope the next few weeks go swiftly. K xox0
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@Blossom1961 I blocked out the fact of the surgery for as long as I possibly could. I feel like it was the only way to get through all the other treatments. I don't know if there is anything wrong with crossing that bridge when you come to it.
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Blocking it out is fine. Deal with it on the day, getting all twisted about it now just wastes time that could be better spent doing just about anything else. Mxx3
