had my second AC after almost 2 weeks of feeling pretty normal, now back in the depths of despair, day 6, don’t know how I will get through, feel less than human.

Such an amazing group of women, with such good advice and tips to get us through chemo, I wish I could wasn’t in this trip, but how blessed to have this online support, so generous and giving and understanding. I have bounced back after a v low 10 days... have made it through three days of work, had 2 yoga sessions, a lovely long walk in the bush by our house, started to enjoy and taste food again and have most of my pre- energy back, been able to read a few pages of my book, do some housework, gosh it makes you so grateful for the things that most take for granted, so looking forward to enjoying the next 6 days x 24 hours before getting zapped again on Thursday, but it will be the 3rd AC, so only 1 more to go!!Thanks all for getting me through

Was thinking of you tonight. Because I know you will keep going. Day 6. A day or 2 and you will feel a bit better again. You can do this, you are stronger than you believe. Kath x

Thanks to all of you, this has been a tough spell, I couldn’t explain it to hubby, but I felt like I wasn’t really alive, just hanging by a thread. Today has been better, 2 walks, ate dinner with family and did a bit of work, but feeling pooped again now. Hoping I wake up even better tomorrow. It’s got to be attacking my lump , that’s what I keep saying. I think this group is a life saver as you are all so giving and supportive. Tried to explain to 2 friends, today but they don’t get it!!!! One of them even said she hadn’t had much of a holiday.......over summer, after being away for a week and off camping next week for five days. Mmm - funny that I will just get on and get stuck into chemo....because that’s is so much fun!!!

@Spillsy, baby steps. You'll feel a little better each day. @Mrs_H is right - I found the hardest thing was to be feeling reasonably good the day of my chemo - very hard lining yourself up again when you know what you're in for. I had chemo 3 weekly on a Friday so every 3rd Thursday would go to our favourite Greek restaurant as my special treat before FUF ( f....ked up Friday) Xx

Something else that’s good and my phycologist suggested doing this - is so all that you can to be kind to yourself . Write a list of things that make you happy.for me I love being outside, so something as simple is having dinner outside with my family even when feeling crap makes Be feel a little normal and happy.xx

Second AC, don’t know if I can hack this

Spillsy
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8 years ago
Such an amazing group of women, with such good advice and tips to get us through chemo, I wish I could wasn’t in this trip, but how blessed to have this online support, so generous and giving and understanding.
I have bounced back after a v low 10 days... have made it through three days of work, had 2 yoga sessions, a lovely long walk in the bush by our house, started to enjoy and taste food again and have most of my pre- energy back, been able to read a few pages of my book, do some housework, gosh it makes you so grateful for the things that most take for granted, so looking forward to enjoying the next 6 days x 24 hours before getting zapped again on Thursday, but it will be the 3rd AC, so only 1 more to go!!
Thanks all for getting me through
Zoffiel
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8 years ago
The time will pass anyway @sister Six months down the track this will be over and done with. It's a choice; you have decided you want to take out the insurance policy, unfortunately it comes at a cost. Which totally sucks
Look at it as a particularly unpalatable job--I find that helped me distance myself from things to a degree. The next couple of days will be tough, but once you get started at least that horrified anticipation goes away.
Sister
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8 years ago
Thanks for that one @nonkyboy As my first chemo date gets closer (5/2) I'm getting more scared - actually dreading it. My body hasn't bounced back from having the port inserted as I think it's just saying, "enough already". Yesterday was 18 years since I lost my Mum, my beautiful boy turns 16 today (which is wonderful but where have the years gone) and I'm not sure how I'm going to manage chemo or what my life is going to look like for the next 6 months. I'm definitely not brave today.
nonkyboy
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8 years ago

Tomorrow is a new day. ((( hugs ))) Lesley
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SoldierCrab
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8 years ago
@Spillsy
my kids learnt things due to my roller coaster ride ....
they where 15,(18, 25 BOYS WITH autism)

they learnt some independence
they learnt to wash and fold the clothes otherwise they needed ironing.
They realised how much they love each other and they would go to great lengths to support each other and me...

I am a single parent since my youngest was 2.
your hubby sounds like he has a it covered....
the kids will be learning valuable skills while they do chores and they will have some strong bonds to their dad from the time he is spending with them.
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Spillsy
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8 years ago
Thanks again, all great suggestions and advice. I know I need to knuckle down and just get through each step of this and yes, if chemo is killing Cancer then it must make you feel like shit for a bit.
Think I am jealous of everyone else camping and enjoying the beautiful summer, probably shouldn’t be on FB so much!! while I lie on the sofa barely existing!!! I am a run around kinda girl, always have been!
Kids have been great, telling me it’s alright mum, You just got to rest up and Husband is being so good, trying to cook things I enjoy, doing all the housework, shopping, getting the kids doing chores and entertaining the kids.
EarthWalkerLish
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8 years ago
I agree that AC was awful. The word that came to mind was "YUCK". It described everything I was feeling. I found the first 10 days after AC all I could do was sleep, lie down, have a little wander in my garden, lie down, lie down out in the garden under the trees, so they could absorb all of my yuckiness. Then around day 10 my digestive system would start working again, and I would feel brighter and a little appetite came back. Prior to my chemo I would take Coloxyl to keep my digestive system moving and keep on top of all anti nausea meds for the week. If I didn't I had those vomiting days. Then I would have a good week before it all happened again. But I knew that good week would come and that's what kept me going.

Some are fortunate with chemo and less side effects and others get everything. No matter what you are feeling and how chemo reacts with your body be kind to yourself. Everyone reacts differently. Find those little joyful moments to keep you going.

Lisha xx