Thank you so much for your reply Tanya! I can't believe how much you are going through also. It's bad enough the first time! I too am awaiting the genetic test results about BRCA, (they decided to test me anyway even with no family history as my tumour was so aggressive and in an unusual area for my age) So waiting to find out as it may mean bilateral mastectomy and ovary removal for me also if I do carry the gene :(
It's so hard not knowing what the future holds. Like you I wonder what I will happen with work, family and relationships. I guess it will all work out in the end if we stay positive. I think the idea of a psychologist is a good one, even though i'm really terrible at talking/opening up about my problems, I guess it's time to face it all.
All I can say is that hopefully this is us getting all of our lives worth of bad luck done with and it will be much better times from here on in!
Stay strong, you are truly amazing xx