Hey holly.
Sounds like you have lots to deal with. Take it one step at a time dont look too far ahead as it can be overwhelming.
You will always have friends here that understand from experience. Everyone reacts differently to treatment so dont beat yourself up over what may happen. I planned for the absolute worse possible scenario and found that chemo wasnt anywhere near as bad as i expected. A lot of the side effects can be treated so make sure you let your oncologist know what you are feeling. Its important to stay positive with baby steps you will surprise yourself how you will breeze through it all.
Sending positive vibes your way and dont hesitate to ask questions here as there are ladies always happy to help. ??????
Maryrose