Hi Holly, and welcome to the network. Sounds like you've already been through so much. I hope that you have someone close to support you, be it family or friends. Try and link up with a local breast you support group, it's good to meet with people who know what you're going through. My breast care nurse linked me with my group. Have you been to a Look Good, Feel Better workshop ? They give you cosmetics, and show you how to use them, they also demonstrate nice hats and head wear, along with linking you with a local wig bank. My only advice is to remember how strong you really are, look what you've coped with already. You are remarkable girl, put that lippy on every day, hold your head up and be proud of yourself. Sending you a big cuddle, Trace ??????