Hi Tink, what you are feeling is so very normal.. It is something that many people battle with after treatment is over.. It should all be over?? right? Well our bodies and our minds work at their own pace.. You are finding yourself at a huge crossroad right now.. You want to just go back to being the 'old' you, and that is actually tricky because you are now a different person than you were before.. I have been where you are now and this feeling will change and it will become easier and more obvious to what it is you need. It is great that you are able to write about it as out is always better than in.. Just a few things that may help you on your way to your 'happy place'. Dont be too hard on yourself, there is no timetable. Look for something that you totally love to do and jump in and it will begin to grow from there. I anticipate the Cert IV is hard right now because you have lost a bit of direction and as you move forward it will be ok. baby steps are totally in order. After my initial diagnosis, I was totally lost.. It took time to find organisational entrepreneur that I knew was still lurking in there.
Sending huge hugs and hope you find the missing path to your happy place really soon
Cheers, Sharon xoxoxoxox