Hello Tink These feelings seem to be so common. I feel its like my innocence is gone' ie We all know that it can happen to us, but that feeling of can't happen to me was strong. We felt invincible, and then it hit!!! And I also stress about my family more than ever before. I can see why some girls change their lives so dramatically.
So no advice, but its nice to know that many feel the same.
Also wish they'd stop a lot of the "cancer prevention" advertising - I lived a healthy life pre cancer - I breastfed, ate my veges, excercised, low fat, checked myself (standing up big bummer) etc Oh but I had a rasher of bacon on Sundays .... oh no ..... and honestly - they don't know. So if I think about it I get real down for our children. So don't think about it ... get through each day with a goofy smile. People will either think I'm a very happy person, or a total idiot. And who cares, hopefully time will heal us all.
Pam