Hi Tink
I know what you mean about wanting to be happy. I am 18 months post diagnosis and can't seem to enjoy anything anymore.
I am self employed and always busy. But I want to be able to switch off and enjoy the outside world. Have started having panic attacks again :(
It's easy to say be happy for what we have , and I am ! Guess you feel the same . Maybe it has nothing to do with the breast cancer , but I also can't relax and enjoy life as my husband thinks I should.
Sounds like we are feeling very similar but I am sorry I have no answers , just commiserations.
Perhaps talking about it on here will help us both and others may have some constructive ideas for us. Here's hoping !
Cheers
Anne