What do I do now?

iserbrown, thank you for your post, and the thought you put into it - there is so much there that I will print it out and go through it in detail. I have been looking at homes in areas I thought I might be okay in, but nothing standing out. I did meet with the chap at the local retirement village, and it was a good visit, he took his time, and took me around to look at it in detail in the little cart - he knows everyones names, and it seems like it has such a good atmosphere. I have joined a chair arthritis group with leaders who are trained in the exercises, thats where I heard about the village - I quite enjoy the group and the coffee afterwards, listening to their stories. My eldest daughter is coming up today so it might be a chance to have a chat to her, as we farewell the other daughter and family as they drive to Queensland. Today Ive been invited back to the school where I used to work prior to retirement, to help supervise exams, others have asked me to come early to have lunch with them. It makes me feel like I have value - I like all those suggestions iserbrown. 

I did attend a retirement workshop prior to leaving work, which was beneficial, I was the only one there who had a plan, and they all said DO NOT LEAVE WORK! The words that stand out to me are crossroads/remnants. You are so right about others getting on with their lives. I sometimes feel so tired, I just have to lie down, and I too have forgotten the journey I have been on. I like your words about making where I am a project and become part of a community. I think I have forgotten that I do have some value.

Thank you everyone x