Hi @LisaJHM . What the others have said - especially @KarynJ . There's nothing you SHOULD be doing, except simply allowing yourself to feel what you feel. I've had some very low phases since diagnosis and during treatments, and have blamed myself for not "getting on with life" more positively - which is rubbish. We each need to deal with this burden in our own way, and feelings come and go in waves. My degree of positivity can skyrocket or plunge from one minute to the next, one hour to the next - depending on triggers.
For me, in comparison with chemo, radiation was easy, though tiring; but everyone is different. One plus is that you're seeing those people every day, and you can ask questions about anything that's concerning you.
Counselling has helped me a good deal on many occasions in life, and with BC. Just to talk stuff out is so useful. And it doesn't HAVE to be about the cancer; I felt loads better when I got my feelings about my adult son (playing up like a second-hand lawnmower) off my half-chest.
An effective strategy suggested to me has been scheduled worry management. If a worry comes into your mind, say, "Yes, I'll deal with that in my worry management meeting at 3 pm." - scheduled for 20 mins max per day, then shut off until the next day. Don't do it within two hours before bedtime. I was astonished at how well it works.
Take care.
